Just some quick updates… I see a cardiologist this morning. It’s not one of my surgery pre-reqs, but my regular doctor noticed that my heart rate is a bit too fast/uneven, so I got referred over just to be safe. I had a 24 monitor on but didn’t do it correctly, so we’ll see how that all goes.
I have a follow-up with Lincare this week to see if I’m complying with CPAP usage. I honestly don’t know how I’ll do with that… I think I have to prove compliance for like 30 of 90 days? I forget the rules. I still can’t sleep well with this mask on, so I have to sit on my ass and not move/eat/drink for at least four hours each day. Hopefully I’ll be done with this thing soon. Anyway, so I take the machine in so they can read the memory card inside to see if I’m compliant, and then I head to the sleep doctor to see how my titration study went. If I “passed” (I don’t know what counts for passing…), then I should be done with everything.
I haven’t gotten my vitamins yet. I’m struggling with finding a combo of vegan and affordable. I know how important the vitamins are and fully intend to take them, it’s just finding the exact right one. It’s frustrating.
Another thing I had mentioned in the shitty video I made is how FUCKING SICK I AM OF BEING FAT. I am so over this!!! I am so sick of never having clothes that fit, worrying every time I sit in a chair I don’t know, not having a normal relationship… and wearing this stupid CPAP mask! I should make a post of all the things I dislike about feeling this way and what I hope for the future.
I have my gym membership back this month, it’s been suspended for the past four months. I’m realizing that it’s a week into the month and I haven’t gone. The week has been crazy, but I should’ve been able to go. I’m just feeling down about myself.
Oh, I got a Blendtec. I haven’t used it yet, but am excited to do green smoothies and stuff.
I realize the images in this post don’t have a heck a lot to do with what I said. They do have to do with what I planned to say, so it totally counts. The next post will be better. I promise.
I really intended to post more updates on this stupid blog. Honestly, I’m just too lazy/frustrated. I recently purchased a domain for all this stuff, but don’t know what to do with it now. I don’t know how to get this blog to look/feel the way I want (you’ll notice I have a new layout or whatever), so I get angry and give up.
Two weeks ago, I went to Providence Hospital in Everett, WA for my titration sleep study. I paid to get my hair French braided, in hopes that I’d get less of the evil paste all over the place and be dealing with matted tangles and stuff. I got put in a room and waited. For an hour. No sleep tech arrived! Four people were getting studied and the tech assigned to me and another person never arrived. They sent us home! Fairly obnoxious since I don’t live anywhere near there, but I got to visit with a friend that lives with Seattle, so it wasn’t a total waste of evening/gas. I was told I would be called to reschedule.
A couple of days later, I went to Swedish for a follow-up appointment. I wasn’t positive what to expect, just knew I should be getting the results from my endoscopy and blood work. I had prepared a list of questions, since I have had difficulty getting answers by phone. I was weighed, had my blood pressure taken, and pulse/temperature checked. After that, I was seen by a nutritionist. She wanted to review a food log I was given months ago, but since I never heard back if it was supposed to be done, I didn’t do it. (I could have, but knew I hadn’t eaten well that week, the form was unclear, and I didn’t know if I was supposed to be listing what I’d normally be eating or on a pre-op diet sort of thing.) We discussed food concerns, went over goals I had set (and completely forgotten) at my first appointment, my diet and how to survive with the plant-based thing (this nutritionist was more supportive, but still pretty uneducated in that respect), and what vitamins I need to get. After that, I met with a nurse. She was kinda snippy. All she said was my lab work was perfect (I call bullshit on that, I know my B12 is crazy low and I haven’t been properly taking my supplements) and that the endoscopy found a hernia and gastritis, which I already knew. She answered my questions, rudely. I’ll be re-asking everything at my final pre-op appointment. Once I’m done with sleep medicine, I should be good to go. After that, it was over. The whole appointment was maybe fifteen minutes. Kinda sucks, considering the distance.
The lobby of Swedish Weight Loss Services has products they endorse. High-protein, low-carb foods (nothing vegan, appears very processed), protein powders, vitamins, and blender bottles. I looked through all of it, took pictures for reference, but didn’t really find anything terribly useful. It certainly would be easier to get by using that stuff… luckily I am used to taking the complicated route. I wandered around the hospital… found the picture I plan to replace with my “after” look (I’m determined to get on one of those damn posters) and had a really gross lunch in the cafeteria. I had pre-paid for three hours of parking and had to get my money’s worth, so I decided to return some calls. Called the sleep clinic back to reschedule and ended up being scheduled for a study that night!
I usually keep like, EVERYTHING in my car. I had JUST taken out the bag I had prepared for my sleep study, otherwise I could’ve just spent the day in Seattle. But nope, had to come back home since I didn’t have my CPAP mask. Between the slightly shitty appointment and Swedish and all the driving I had been doing that week, I was tired and crabby by the time I got home. I didn’t care, I took a damn nap. I didn’t figure I’d be sleeping at the study anyhow.
The sleep study went alright, I guess. I got lost on the way (Google maps suddenly changed directions) and the parking lot I was used to was blocked off for painting. Since I was annoyed, I decided it’d be funny if I drank before checking in. I had a bottle of Mike’s in the car (after I was parked and the car was off – don’t drink and drive, kids!) and headed up to my appointment. Even though I’m over 300 pounds, I’m a lightweight when it comes to alcohol. As I waited in the sleep study bedroom, I was cracking up watching Talladega Nights. I told the tech I had a drink and apparently it’s like REALLY common. This chick was hilarious and told me lots of funny stories. The study itself kinda sucked… every time I fell asleep and she adjusted the CPAP pressure and it’d wake me up. The paste crap got EVERYWHERE. My hair was a goddamn mess by the time I woke up! When I got back home, I covered my head in coconut oil and rinsed out with the highest temperature water that I could tolerate. Everything washed out except one chunk, and I just cut the stupid thing out.
I have pictures of all of this stuff, or used to, but misplaced them with the stupid iOS 7 update. I’ll edit them in later, if that is something that can be done.
There is more to say, but I’m tired of writing. Later, bitches!
I’m getting ready for a sleep study.
I need to leave in like… three hours. (Crap – is that right? I really shouldn’t be writing right now. Eh, fat girl priorities...) I have a bunch to do, I’m not at all prepared.
I did a sleep study a few years ago and it sucked. Hard. (Wow, I just found a picture from it on Facebook – 7/21/11… this one is gonna be 7/22/13. Freaky!)
The room was too cold (They insisted it needed to be cold he help me sleep. Okay, except I sleep better when it’s warm.). I was covered in tape and wires and bands and goo. It was uncomfortable and itchy. I could continue listing things… but gotta keep the negativity away.
I’m really scared about this appointment. I haven’t been to the hospital where it’s all going down, it’s about 45 minutes away. What I am most concerned about is the CPAP. I got diagnosed with sleep apnea when I did the study a few years ago, even though I slept MAYBE ten minutes. I got the CPAP probably a year later. (I told them I would try this mouth guard thing first, but due to lack of money/laziness, I never did.) I have high anxiety and couldn’t get over feeling like I was drowning or something. You know when you’re walking outside and it’s too windy and you cant breathe for a second? It was like that. (DISCLAIMER: CPAPs can be incredibly useful. I am not knocking them, it just wasn’t right for me.) To be fair, I didn’t try it as much as I could’ve. I decided early that it wasn’t for me and returned the unit.
Anyway, point being, I hope to not be told I need to get that again.
I get the sleep study in a few hours, get the results next week, then next up should be the lab work and endoscopy and then everything gets submitted to insurance for the weight loss surgery!
I haven’t been posting because I keep planning on this big detailed blog that’ll explain things and have links and info and be super-mondo-amazing. But clearly, that’s not happening. I don’t really know HOW to blog, so until I find a rhythm, this thing will be a little all over the place. Suggestions on how to make this better are always appreciated.
So, I guess I’ll do a brief overview. I have pre-ordered the Fitbit One (see, I was gonna have a link here so I wouldn’t have to explain, but it just seems like SO much effort now haha), it should arrive at the end of the month.
I have been housesitting and have accomplished a whole lot of nothing this weekend. But that’s okay.
In an effort to keep the pressure off so I’ll keep writing, I’m posting this now. More later!