Just some quick updates… I see a cardiologist this morning. It’s not one of my surgery pre-reqs, but my regular doctor noticed that my heart rate is a bit too fast/uneven, so I got referred over just to be safe. I had a 24 monitor on but didn’t do it correctly, so we’ll see how that all goes.
I have a follow-up with Lincare this week to see if I’m complying with CPAP usage. I honestly don’t know how I’ll do with that… I think I have to prove compliance for like 30 of 90 days? I forget the rules. I still can’t sleep well with this mask on, so I have to sit on my ass and not move/eat/drink for at least four hours each day. Hopefully I’ll be done with this thing soon. Anyway, so I take the machine in so they can read the memory card inside to see if I’m compliant, and then I head to the sleep doctor to see how my titration study went. If I “passed” (I don’t know what counts for passing…), then I should be done with everything.
I haven’t gotten my vitamins yet. I’m struggling with finding a combo of vegan and affordable. I know how important the vitamins are and fully intend to take them, it’s just finding the exact right one. It’s frustrating.
Another thing I had mentioned in the shitty video I made is how FUCKING SICK I AM OF BEING FAT. I am so over this!!! I am so sick of never having clothes that fit, worrying every time I sit in a chair I don’t know, not having a normal relationship… and wearing this stupid CPAP mask! I should make a post of all the things I dislike about feeling this way and what I hope for the future.
I have my gym membership back this month, it’s been suspended for the past four months. I’m realizing that it’s a week into the month and I haven’t gone. The week has been crazy, but I should’ve been able to go. I’m just feeling down about myself.
Oh, I got a Blendtec. I haven’t used it yet, but am excited to do green smoothies and stuff.
I realize the images in this post don’t have a heck a lot to do with what I said. They do have to do with what I planned to say, so it totally counts. The next post will be better. I promise.